Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Making Changes for Myself

I haven't updated about myself (weightloss, nutrition, exercise, etc) in quite a while.  This is mainly because I haven't made good choices for myself in the past almost 2 years.  January (2014), I had lost 93lbs from my highest weight.  By the time I found out I was pregnant with Maddox (end of Feb), I had gained about 10lbs or so because I became complacent and had stopped running/working out.  I gained a decent amount of weight with my pregnancy because I just didn't make good choices and I never exercised because I was exhausted all the time.  After having Maddox, I dropped a little of the pregnancy weight but then stalled out about 45-50lbs from my original goal (and 30lbs from pre-pregnancy weight). 

Instead of getting a plan in place and going back to the basics that I knew I should have, I just lived it up and ate whatever I wanted and didn't work out.  On top of that, I am very much a stress eater, anxiety eater, bored eater, etc.  I've had a lot of stress going on in my life and even on days where Maddox was super fussy, I just felt like I could eat anything and everything.  Not a good feeling to not have control over your cravings and food choices.  I've literally sat on the couch eating cookies or some other nonsense and thought to myself (while I was eating).... "why am I even eating this?"  Food addiction is an angry beast (or maybe hangry? lol). But for real... it's not to be taken lightly.  I consider it an eating disorder for sure.  Most of it really goes back to a mental issue though.

I had started back on c25k a few of months ago but then a very busy October happened, I broke my pinky toe and I've literally been sick for over 3 weeks.  Needless to say, I haven't been running or exercising at all.  I want very much to get back in there and find a routine for myself.  I started in a new department at work and my schedule will be set (still part-time.... thank the Lord) so I really have no excuses (although I'm sure I'll make plenty).

Fast-forward to the present.  I made the decision 3.5 weeks ago to cut out most sugar and all grains.  When I say "most sugar", I mean the bad sugar.  I'm still eating fruit and such.  I do feel much better, although I haven't been able to enjoy the benefits yet because, like I said, I've been sick for 3 weeks!  I finally took my stubborn self to the doctor and got an antibiotic (blah) for my sinus infection and upper respiratory infection that I diagnosed myself with before I went to the doctor (it's a semi-annual occurance).  So, here's to healthy eating and hopefully some running very soon.

Since I made the changes, I've lost 9lbs.  This is a huge feat for me because even though I had surgery 2.5 years ago, it's still very difficult for me to lose weight.  While the weightloss is a great thing, I'm not focusing on that as much this time.  Keyword being "as much" there lol I still check it because I have goals in place.  I'm focusing on my health in general and how I feel.  My brain was so foggy and I had no energy or motivation.  I want to make sure I'm in the best health I can be for Maddox.  I have quite a ways to go for this because he is becoming really mobile (walking) and it's tiring.

Anyways... that's the gist of what's going on in that part of my world.  Sorry for the really long post! I really write for myself anyway lol I am going to try to start doing my progress pictures and such again.  It's such a great help to see how far I've come.