Wednesday, March 27, 2013

One Week Down

It's been one week since I had surgery.  I still can't quite believe I actually did it.  It's been interesting to say the least.  I've had a lot of mixed feelings and emotions but I'm staying positive.  All the fluids they pumped me with while I was in the hospital made me gain about 10 pounds.  But I weighed today and I have lost a total of 17 lbs.  That is 12 lbs before surgery and then 5 lbs post op...and that's just 3 weeks.  I'm very happy with that and it's very encouraging for me.

I have had a few things that I've had to deal with as far as pain goes.  I get a lot of pressure in my chest but I've learned that it could be from drinking to fast.  I'm still on liquids only so that has been interesting.  I have been good this week at getting in all my protein and fluids.  This weekend was bad and actually a little scary because I had a hard time drinking my protein shakes and barely got any protein in so I was super weak and had no energy. But I'm a lot better now.  Monday, mom and I went and looked at some model homes just so I could get out of the house and walk around.  Then Tuesday, we went to a couple stores and then we went to see Wicked (my Christmas gift). It was awesome! And I was happy to be back in the land of the living complete with makeup and hair fixed lol. Today, I went down to the clubhouse fitness room at our apartment and walked on the treadmill for 3o minutes.  It felt good.  Then, I was going to come back and get ready and go to the mall but I ended up falling asleep on the couch lol. I guess I needed it.  I'm still sleeping on the couch so I haven't been sleeping all that great.  I tried one night in the bed but it hurt to turn over. I would get this weird pain in my collarbone.  

I have my one week post op appointment tomorrow.  Hopefully, I am doing everything I am supposed to be doing. I've been walking like i'm supposed to and getting my protein in but I've had a hard time getting all my fluids/water in.

Well...that's all for now.  Think I'll go to the mall tomorrow and buy something that I can work towards :)  an early birthday present for myself.

Friday, March 22, 2013

I made it through...

Well surgery day was Wednesday.  I had to be at the hospital at 7:30am. I went straight back to be prepped for surgery including the dreaded IV. I didn't care much for the anesthesiologist. He seemed rushed and just kept poking at veins that he thought was there but would turn out to be nothing.  Finally he went to get the ultrasound machine and was able to find a good one in my arm that way. I was very thankful because his next choice was either my foot or my neck. Soon after I got my IV, my family was called back as well as one of my ministers who was there to pray with me. I also got a little something to relax me. Not long after that, I was rolled into the OR. I spoke with Dr. Pirrello for a second and then they put a mask over my face and told me to have a good sleep. I don't remember anything after that until I woke up in recovery. I have no idea how long I was there until I was put into my room. As soon as I was in my room, I asked for my family. They couldn't find them (mainly  because they looked in the wrong waiting room).  Finally my family made it in there about 45 minutes later and they were irritated that no one had found them. I got out of bed and sat in a chair for the rest of the evening and even walked around a few times.  So I definitely didn't sleep that night. Too many interruptions.

Yesterday, they had me up at 6am to sit back in the chair and start drinking protein shake and water every hour.  Along with doing breathing treatments and walking around. No rest for the weary. Around 2, they came in to start discharge stuff and took my IV out with the 3 very sticky pieces of tape. They also took out my drainage tube which felt really weird and uncomfortable. Definitely not something I want to experience again.  Once I got home, I continued on my hourly protein/water regiment.  I decided to sleep on the couch last night because I knew I'd probably be up and down a bit. 

Today, I still feel a lot of pressure in my chest and I really hope that part goes away. Otherwise I seem to be pretty good considering I had pretty major surgery and they took out 80% of my stomach.

I'm not going to weigh until I go to my post-op appointment next week because they said I'd probably gain due to all the fluid they pumped me with. But the morning of the surgery, I had lost 12 lbs since starting the low-carb diet which was only like 2 or 3 weeks ago.  So that's good!

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Fear

I read a blog the other day of someone who had the sleeve surgery and lost quite a bit of weight.  She expressed in her blog about some different emotional and mental battles that went along with the weightloss.  As I get closer to my own surgery, I realize that these same things are fears of my own.  She mentioned that people expect that when a large person loses weight that they are stronger.  This can sometimes be far from the truth because as the weight comes off, there are psychological issues that have been hidden for so long and are beginning to surface. I have never considered myself to have a "relationship" with food but as I begin to come to grips with the fact that I won't be eating anything I'm used to, I find that I may have used it as a crutch.  I know I have a lot of "issues". I'm pretty good at hiding them. But I'm afraid of the changes to come. I know I'm doing the right thing. I just pray that God will help me through any tough times.  Once I'm cleared for strength training, I want to join a nearby boxing club in hopes of dealing with any emotional issues that way. Nothing better than punching away the stresses of life :).

So anyway...other than the normal fears that come along with having surgery...this is what I'm thinking about.

By the way. I'm only 2 days away. Nervous but ready. I've been waiting for 8 months now.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

7 days

Today, I'm thinking about the work I will need to put into exercising to make this surgery successful and worth it. If I had a lot of money, I would hire a personal trainer to come to me but of course, I'm pretty broke. I'm a member at a gym (which was stupid for me to get into that contract because I'm not really a fan of the place) but I feel like they just push their personal training sessions as a sale. I don't even know if they have good experienced personal trainers that may have worked with clients that have had weightloss surgery. It's frustrating really because I miss what I had at lifetime. I really enjoyed my trainer there and the strike class that they have. But they went up on their member fees and I can't afford it plus personal training sessions. So I don't really know what I'm gonna do. I know just starting is the key. My mind doesn't seem to want to work that way though. It wants to think about the strength training routine I'll be doing once I can start lifting weights and doing that type of exercise.

And that's what's on my mind today. That and the fact that I only have 7 days left. Wow!

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Let the count down begin...

I had my pre-op appointment yesterday.  I'm down 5lbs from my last appointment which is great and I'm hoping to be another 5 down by surgery but if not, that's ok....as long as I'm not up, I'm good.  I did cheat last night but I don't plan on doing that again. Not sure why I did it in the first place but nothing I can do about it now.

I'm getting super nervous.  I have all my prescriptions that I have to get filled which I don't have a clue what that's going to cost me.  I'm still most nervous about the IV.  I'm just really praying that whoever comes to give me an IV is super good and my veins cooperate so I don't have to have a pic line or an IV in my neck.

My surgery is scheduled for 7:30am...meaning I have to be at the hospital at 5:30am! yikes!  And they want you to shower with special soap the night before and the morning of the surgery.  So I might as well go to bed at like 8pm the night before.  Like I'm going to be able to sleep!

I'm telling myself this will all be worth it.  I went to Cato the other day just to look around and I walked around the "normal" side rather than the big girl side and I just can't even imagine being able to squeeze myself into anything there but it's a nice thought.  I'm going to have to get a second job to support my new clothing addiction though haha.

K...that's all for now :) 8 days away from a new beginning.

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Sugar Me Timbers...

I'm just assuming no one reads this so it doesn't really matter if I come up with dumb titles right? :)

I have my pre-op appointment on Monday so I decided to get a jump start on things...or try to at least. Today was day 1. I even used My Fitness Pal to put my food in. Yay for me! Lol oh and the title....I decided to take sugar and white flour out of my diet. Although I am drinking a diet dr pepper right now. I think I'm going to have to wait until a couple days before surgery to go cold turkey on that one!

I looked at my insurance website today. Blah! The cost of my endoscopy was on there. Granted it's probably not as much as originally quoted because I had to do it without meds. Which... umm... I don't recommend lol

Anywho....we moved into our apartment about a month ago. We're on the 3rd floor. So far so good. My wonderful mother is making curtains for me and I painted an accent wall in the living room and dining room. I'll post a picture when I'm finished.

That's all I've got for now :)