I think we all can say that sometimes we get so wrapped up in our everyday lives that we feel overwhelmed. I really want to be able to say that I rely on God for everything. It's tough because I'm hard-headed and a bit controlling. I'm getting better at it but it's certainly a work in progress. Today in church, our pastor had a great message on the names of God and how everything on earth shall praise His name. Three of those names really stuck out to me....I guess it's just the things that I'm going through right now but I thought I'd share them.
*Jehovah-Jireh which translates to "The Lord, Our Provider". And that is so true. I've experienced this so many times in different ways really. We live paycheck to paycheck like many others and there have been times where we really just have had to rely on God to make things work and He always comes through one way or another. I don't think it's just a financial thing though. God knows exactly what we are going through, what we are feeling, what we are thinking. He provides us what we need when we need it (and this is based on what HE thinks we need and when we need it...not just what we want or think should happen). In my mind, this really could be as easy as a song on the radio with lyrics that speak to me or a scripture verse that I come across or a note (text) from a friend telling me I'm important to them. Those things could just run by me and I don't even think a second thing about it and then I start to wonder...."Does God care? Is He listening?" Of course....I have to remember to stand back and really try to look at things in a different light. It makes a huge difference. And when I start to realize the little things like that, I count them as a blessing and thank God for providing.
*Jehovah-Shalom which translates to "The Lord, Our Peace". Life gets turned upside down. Things happen that are out of our control. Anxiety takes over. We just don't know what to do. Trust me. I know. I'm so thankful that with everything that can happen, I know that God is the only one that can give me the true peace that I need to get through it. And I know...without a shadow of doubt...that He will never leave me or forsake me. Like any other human being, I have to remind myself of this because if I let it, anxiety can overtake me...or even depression. I choose to pray for Peace. Even if I never understand why something is happening, His Grace and Peace that He offers is more than enough.
*El Shaddai which translates to "God Almighty". God ALMIGHTY....who was, who is, and who forever will be. How thankful I am to serve an Almighty God.
Well. That's all I have on my mind for right now. I'll leave you with a verse that I have recently memorized that really helps me.
2 Corinthians 12:9 "But he said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."
Friday, January 18, 2013
On New Year's Day, I was just sitting around doing as little as possible. When we aren't doing anything, I will often doodle or make a list or re-figure our budget over and over like I'm going to find more money magically. I started thinking about how fast 30 is creeping up on me. I can sit and think about all the things that I thought I would have accomplished by now or I can make goals for things I want to accomplish in the future. I choose to take the positive route because otherwise I'll drown in my sorrows of dreams that have yet to happen. So I made a list of goals...things I want to do before I turn 30....which by the way is only 16 short months away....not that I'm wishing my life away or anything. Here they are:
~Weightloss Surgery (just waiting on my surgery date...should be in March sometime)
~Lose 100 pounds. Obviously this goes with the above goal...duh.
~Have at least 2 photo sessions with different photographers and have a paint fight at the
end of one session :) Doesn't that just sound fun?
~Visit friends in Michigan
~Go on a cruise...or NYC...or anywhere fun really
~Have our own place again
~Pay off a good portion of debt...at least all credit cards and maybe the car
~Work on a jewelry business
~Get in great shape
~Participate in the Color Run in November
~Run a 5k
~Get another tattoo (ambitious goal there huh? lol)
~Have a dinner party (obviously once we're back in our own place)
~Throw a surprise party
~Learn a language or re-learn/brush up on French
~Start a blog....whoop whoop! here's one checked off :)
~Read the Bible more
~Take a couple breaks from social media (currently been off of facebook and pinterest for
2 weeks and so far, I'm over the withdrawal stage lol)
~Read more....self-help, devotion, Bible, etc.
~Get better at graphic design
I'm sure I can add to this but for now...these are my main goals. There are a lot of them but I think they are doable.