Monday, November 11, 2013

Screw Society

Society scares me.  Everywhere you look now, you see a standard of "perfection" that we should all supposedly be living up to.  The overly photoshopped models in magazines, the makeup caked actresses, the 16 yr old models on the catwalk that haven't even fully formed into women yet... and "thigh gap".  Are you kidding me?  No wonder I've been on a diet since I was a child.  Society told me I wasn't "normal".  I fear for today's children.  I fear for a child that maybe even I will bring into this world.

Honestly, at this point in my life....I say screw society.  I may not ever weigh what the charts say I "should" weigh.  I'm pretty sure I will always have some flabby skin and not have perfect muscle tone or 6 pack abs.  But, I'm starting to like the woman that I see in the mirror.  Not because I've lost weight but because I'm an overcomer.  I no longer have high blood pressure.  I'm a lot farther from the diabetes and heart disease that I was spiraling toward.  My mind is clearer than it's ever been.  I'm strong and I've challenged my body to do things that I never thought I'd be able to do.  So instead of looking in the mirror and constantly seeing the minor imperfections, I choose to remind myself that I am beautifully and wonderfully made.  I am the woman that God made me to be and that is all that should matter.

I'm not saying we shouldn't work on ourselves.  I would certainly be a hypocrite if I said that seeing that I underwent surgery to help me lose weight.  But I didn't have surgery for vanity purposes.  I didn't have surgery because I wanted to get down to a weight where I would be more accepted by society.  I did it because I couldn't do it on my own and I was unhealthy and not living a full life.  It didn't have anything to do with my willpower or determination because I had lots of that.  Really, I think it comes down to genetics.  And I also believe that God allows you to go through things for a reason.  If I hadn't gone through all that I have, I don't think I would be the person I am today.  And I kinda like that person.  So in a round about way, I'm thankful for it.

And I'm just going to jump out there and say that society needs more "normal" me.  People who have gone through struggles but by the grace of God are taking back their lives and not letting the world drag them down because they aren't "perfect".

Ok...I think that is all :)

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