Wednesday, October 30, 2013

SOLD! and moving on...

It's of today! Papers are signed and we are no longer home owners!  I never thought I would be SO happy to say that lol  We didn't tell many people but an investor came through the neighborhood early this month and made a cash offer on our house.  It wasn't asking price but it covered what we owed plus closing costs plus what we put into it after the renters moved out.  We said yes immediately.  God is good!  We were supposed to close last Friday but of course, it got pushed today.  I'm just so thankful that it's over.  I really thought it was never going to happen.  This has been a long long drawn out process between moving out, renting it out, having crazy renters, fixing their messes and putting it on the market just hoping we had enough savings to last until it sold.  And's gone!  Yes it was our first home but I really think we emotionally disconnected from the house after the first time we put it on the market 3 years it's all good :)

I usually consider myself a pretty patient person but man oh man has God tested my patience and shown me how little I actually had over the past year and a half.  But through this time, my relationship with Him has grown stronger and I'm thankful for that.  I've learned to truly rely on Him and to praise Him in the good times and the bad.  And also to take one month at a time instead of trying to plan ahead so far in advance which only increases my anxiety.

So as we close that chapter of our lives, we will be moving on and hopefully making better decisions.  Just a couple of weeks ago, I was throwing myself quite the pity party.  "Oh woe is me, what are we going to do..." We knew we didn't want to be in the apartment over the holidays because let's face's a little boring and not "home" at all.  But there really isn't anything on the market and we don't want to settle the next time we make a huge decision like that plus we have a lot of debt and didn't figure anyone would give us the time of day for a mortgage.  Throw in some "I want a baby but we live in a one bedroom apartment and have no other options..." and you've got yourself a good tear-filled night.  (Poor Darren lol)  The next day, I got a call from my mom saying that her friend had an empty two bedroom, two bathroom condo (almost twice the size of our apartment!) in a nice neighborhood literally 5 minutes from my work and it would cost about the same as what we are paying now.  She was going to list it for rent the next day.  I think God was saying "see, Melissa....don't doubt me!"  So needless to say, we are moving....again :)  We've decided to go ahead and rent for a couple of years (possibly).  Our next course of action will be to pay down our debt and build up our savings before buying another home.  If a baby works it's way into that plan, then it is more than welcome :)

I'm so excited and I feel like this is really where God wants us to be.  We can make this place our home for a while until He directs us otherwise.  I can't wait to post pictures of my decorating because you KNOW I've already got lots of plans :)  I'm actually going to start painting this weekend so I can get it done before we move in.  We have to be out of our apartment by Nov. 25....right before Thanksgiving of course but I'm totally ok with that.  We'll probably actually be out the week before anyway.  I've edited a few of my Italy pictures so I'm excited to get those printed on canvas to display our own art from a memorable trip.

Anyway.  Yay!

Kiss It Goodbye Challenge: Week 6 Check-In

I'm halfway through the challenge that I created for myself.  I can see the finish line but only because it means stepping onto a giant ship and setting sail :)  Although I'm quite certain I will not reach my 25lb goal, I've accomplished other goals that I now think are far superior.  The fact that I'm running at all is awesome.  So is the fact that I'm at a place where I'm willing to get up at 4:45am in order to get it done.  So I'm just going to stick with that.  This post is going to be SUPER short because I have another post that I want to get up today that is not weight related at all.  So without further ado....that's all I've got and here's to hoping that what I want to post about actually happens today!

Friday, October 25, 2013

7 months

I am now 7 months post op so thought I would do a bit of a progress post.  I've lost 81.5 lbs.  Sometimes I look in the mirror and see the same person I was 81.5 lbs ago.  Then other times I catch a glimpse in the mirror and give a double take.  I feel better about myself.  I think I can actually attribute most of that to the c25k program though.  It's really amazing how good I feel after I finish one of the days in the program where I push myself just a little more than I did the day before.

Anyway...Here are inches I've lost in the past 7 months...
Neck: -2
L. Bicep: -3.5
L. Forearm: -2
Chest: -7
Bust: -6.5
Waist: -10 (wow!)
Hips: -9.5
R. Thigh: -5.5  (double wow!)
R. Calf: -1.5
Total: -47 inches

And here's a comparison side by side.  This is the day before surgery (March) and then this Wednesday.

Like I said, sometimes I can't see the difference.  I know that's completely mental though.  I mean seriously...I'm standing in almost the same spot and taking up a LOT less doorway  lol

I still have a long way to go.  I'd like to lose at least 40 more pounds, I think.  But more than that, I really want to tone and to build my running endurance.  I've come a long way.  Yesterday morning, I ran two segments of 8 minutes each.  Just 5 weeks ago, I was having to work so hard to huff and puff my way through a 60 second jogging segment....and now, 8 minutes?  That's awesome in my book.  I can't wait to see what more my body will do.

I said I was only going to weigh once a month but I don't think that's enough to keep myself in check so I'm going to do once a week.  That way, I can assess if I need to re-evaluate anything.  I'm trying not to worry too much with the scale but I'm having a hard time not.  I think my body has gotten to a point now where it's going to be super hard to lose more and I've really got to step up my game.  I've been running, yes, but I've got to start doing my strength training and really focusing hard on what I'm eating and making good choices.  I have been doing pretty well on my water.  I get about 70 oz in a day but weekends are really bad and I just don't think about it.

So...there's my progress update :)

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Kiss It Goodbye Challenge: Week 5 Check-In

5 weeks down! 7 to go!  Time sure is going fast.  Darren hid my scales and I haven't even gone to look for them.  I will weigh this Friday morning and take my 7 month progress pictures and measurements Thursday evening.  I can't believe it's been 7 months since my surgery either.

I did okay on my exercise this week.  I did c25k last Thursday, yesterday, and this morning.  I didn't exercise over the weekend but we did go to Blowing Rock so we walked for several hours if that counts :)  Very leisurely though.

We have a whole lot of stuff that is going on in the next 2 months on top of the holidays.  Life is about to get a lil' crazy.  I'm just praying I can breathe through it all and make good choices and continue to exercise.  Today was the beginning of week 5 in c25k.  I might do day one over again even though I made it through it plus jogged 6 minutes in the last segment instead of 5.  I'm a little nervous about day 2 and running 8 minutes straight (twice).  But, I've surprised myself along the way so I think I will continue to do so.  It's really amazing how much your body adapts when you consistently challenge it.

Oh...I forgot to post about my support group meeting last Wednesday!  There were 5 of us in there (4 sleeved, 1 lapband) along with the surgery coordinators and the dietician who was the "guest" speaker.  It was a pretty good meeting.  I found out that I'm supposed to be at 4oz a meal by this point.  Good to know since I'd only been eating 3oz.  After the meeting was over, the 5 of us left at the same time and everyone was like "ok, well now that we are away from them, let's talk for real" lol  At that point, it was nice.  We compared pictures and talked about problems we were having or anything like that.  So overall, it was good.  I'll definitely go back.  My next one is Nov. 20 and they are going to have a psychologist in there to give us pointers on how to get through the holidays.... Lord knows I need that!

I think Christmas is going to be difficult for me this year.  Not only am I going on a cruise the week before but my mother in law always bakes a lot at Christmas and it's all yummy things that I like.  I'm usually fine if we sit down for a meal and it's done...I can avoid any temptation.  It's when food is sitting around and everyone is just talking or whatnot and then before you know it, I'm popping a chocolate covered peanut butter ball in my mouth without even thinking about it.  I'm hoping I can avoid that this year for real!  I'm hoping that training for a 5k on Nov. 30th will help me through Thanksgiving.  Maybe I need to find a 5k for right after Christmas to help get me through that lol

Hoping to post good news on Friday...crossing my fingers anyway :)


Wednesday, October 16, 2013

Kiss It Goodbye Challenge: Week 4 Check-In

Week 4 done already?  October is FLYING by!  It may be because I have a countdown until my cruise on my refrigerator :)  61 days!  Woohoo!  Anyways.  I had Darren hide my scale for real.  I'll bring it out next Saturday, October 26th.  I know that's past my "progress day" (20th) but I usually don't do my pictures during the week so I'll do everything on that day.  It should be interesting.

So far this week, I've gotten up twice at 5am to go exercise (well 3 times if you include last Thursday within "this week").  I'm actually beginning to enjoy it.  I have to remind myself when my alarm goes off that I will feel a lot better after I get up and complete my program.  I did week 4 day 1 of the c25k program this morning.  I was so proud of myself for making it through it.  It was a 5 minute warm up, jog 3 minutes, walk 90 seconds, jog 5 minutes, walk 2.5 minutes, jog 3 minutes, walk 90 seconds, jog 5 minutes, 5 minute cool down.  That means I jogged a total of 16 minutes.  I can remember my first week when I was huffing and puffing through 60 seconds of jogging and I couldn't even make it through all of the jogging segments.  It makes me feel awesome to know that I've gotten this far!

This evening, I'm going to a support group meeting that is hosted by my bariatric surgery group.  Supposedly they have one once a month but they haven't had one since I've had my surgery (thank goodness for online groups!).  So I got an email the other day from the coordinator saying there was going to be one tonight.  I figured 'hey why not'.  They are having a dietician from a heart clinic come in to speak.  I really don't know what else to expect.  Hopefully it will be worth my time.

That's all I've got for now.  I will try to update on something other than my kiss it goodbye challenge :)

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Kiss It Goodbye Challenge: Week 3 Check-in

It's crazy how quickly time passes isn't it?  This week, I worked out 3 times doing my c25k program.  I even did those workouts on Friday afternoon and Saturday morning!  I haven't felt compelled to work out on a Saturday in probably 12 years (aka...when I was in high school)! And this morning, I was up at 5am to get dressed and go down to our apartment gym.  Craziness!  I really did enjoy getting my workout over with this morning though.  I just haven't had the energy or motivation to do it when I get home.  Granted, I had to go to bed at 9pm in order to get up at 5am  lol but oh well...

I didn't lose anything this week.  I made an announcement on Facebook that I was taking the batteries out of the scale.  Darren reminded me that it has to be reprogrammed every time you do that so I'm just having him hide it from me lol  I will weigh in on the 20th of each month because that is my surgery date anniversary.  I'm so tired of bouncing up and down 2 pounds so I just don't want to see it any more.  I know that starting a new exercise routine can throw weightloss off and other female things can lead to water retention.  So I'm just going to focus on succeeding with my c25k program and take my measurements and not worry so much about numbers on the scale.

Today, I've noticed that by getting up earlier, my water intake has been better.  It's only noon and I've already had about 40oz of plain water.  I read in an article the other day that you should drink half your body weight in water. WHAT?! I can barely get in the "suggested" 64oz a day.

Yesterday, I made it to dinner with only about 25 carbs for the day.  But for some reason, I was just so hungry.  I probably wasn't really and probably should have just drank more water...but what did I do instead?  I ate a big spoon of peanut butter (the bad addicting but oh so good kind that I said I was breaking up with) and then had a protein bar.  At least I still stayed below 50 grams of carbs so it could have been much worse but still....I'm trying to do better!  Today, I went ahead and put in all my food into My Fitness Pal and as long as I only eat what I put into it, it will be about 25 carbs but it's only 900 calories.  That's before you factor in the calories I burned.  So I guess I will find out if that's ok or not.  I'm also trying to not eat past 7:30pm.  We'll see how that goes.

So that's pretty much my week in a nutshell :)

Monday, October 7, 2013

My Motivation Monday... c25k

I don't know about you but on Mondays...I have NO motivation to do anything.  I make it to work and then I even go ahead and tell myself that it's okay if I don't workout.  How's that for a cop-out? Today, I will be starting week 3 day 1 of c25k (crossing fingers I make it at least lol).  So far, this is one of the best things I've done.  It's like pulling teeth to make myself do it 4 or 5 days a week but once I'm finished, I feel like a different person.  I can even tell in the last couple of weeks that my head seems more clear....less foggy.

I've been alternating doing the program on the treadmill with an incline (just 1) and doing it outside around the apartment complex with lots of hills and such.  I can't really say which one I like better, but I know I don't like hills lol  I'm signing up for my first 5k on November 30.  A local town that goes all out for Christmas is hosting it and it's in the evening so you're running by the light of the Christmas lights.  I thought that was pretty cool.  My friend and a couple of her friends are doing it so I thought I'd just join them.  Otherwise, I was going to sign up for one the following week to do by myself.  I may like it enough that I want to do that one too :)  I won't get ahead of myself though lol

If you've been thinking about trying this program, I highly recommend it.  It's amazing to feel the progress that your own body is making as you go through it.  Being able to push yourself a bit further everyday is great.  I haven't lost any weight (other than a quick hopeful bounce down just to go back up) but I've lost another inch in my hips just from the time I started the program.  I choose to go by that.  I do have a weight goal for sure but I think it will come as my body gets used to the new routine.  At least that is my hope.

I'm also trying to do my strength training routine at least 3 days a week (every other day).  I think it's important to include weights into a routine.  Strength is important for many different reasons.  Gaining muscle allows you to burn more calories even when you are not working out.  Also, strengthening your core can alleviate a lot of back pain.  Trust me when I say it sucks to go from a strong person who works out often to someone who has given up and lost the muscle they gained and feels like a weakling.  It's not a fun feeling so I'm trying to change that.

T minus 18 days until I can share house news.  Keep praying!

Sunday, October 6, 2013

The Sunday Social: Week 6

This week's Sunday Social is focused on your childhood :)  If you'd like to participate, click the cute lil' pic below to go to Ashley's blog.  Copy the url for the pic along with the questions and then post it all into your blog post and answer the questions.  When you are finished, go back to Ashley's blog and link your page.  Easy Peasy ;)

Sunday Social

1. What were you like in middle school and high school?
I feel like this is a REALLY broad question as I changed a LOT during middle school and high school.  I went to a strict Independent Baptist private school for 6 & 7 grade (worst decision ever!) and begged my parents to put me back into public school.  In 8th grade, I went back to public school and I conformed to what my friends thought was cool....which included smoking and drinking (another bad bad decision).

In high school, I was starting to find myself and the things that *I* liked.  I had more friends (still hung out with the bad influences) and we started going to a new church.  In 11th grade, I completely separated myself from my "friends" who were quickly on a downward spiral.  I focused on a lot of "acquaintances" at school and close friends at church (aka Darren lol).  In 12th grade, I became friends with 4 girls at school that are still 4 of my favorite people and I'm lucky to call them friends.

2. What were your favorite pastimes?
I spent a lot of time with my friends or on the phone.  We went to the movies or skating rink every weekend when I was in middle school.  Once I got into high school and turned 15, I got a job.  When I got my drivers license, I was on the road ALL the time!  I would go pick up a friend and we spent a lot of time shopping, going to the movies, playing pool, for the most part just innocent fun :)  I was also a BIG reader.  I could get lost in a book so fast and just read for hours and hours...forgetting everything around me.

3. What songs were you obsessed with?
Oh man...again..broad question considering we are talking a 7 year span  lol  I liked anything they played on the top 40 station.  I was into Boyz II Men, N'Sync, Backstreet Boys, Third Eye Blind, No Doubt, Sisqo, KC & Jojo, etc.  I liked songs with a great beat....but who doesn't?  Still today, when I hear certain "old school" songs, I can close my eyes and be back at a certain time when I was listening to that song.  So interesting how our minds can do that.

4. What fashion statement do you look back on and cringe?
I did the bang thing for just a little bit in middle school but I have a wretched cowl lick so it's not exactly the best look.

5. Who was your celeb crush?
In high school, I'm going to go with Ryan Phillipe, Justin Timberlake, Paul Walker and Vin Diesel.  Middle School was more like Joey Lawrence, Andrew Keegan, Jonathan Taylor Thomas lol (what happened to him??).  And I still love Justin Timberlake, Paul Walker and Vin Diesel :)  And have you noticed that several people have really only gotten better looking with age? Joey Lawrence, Leo Dicaprio, Mark Walhberg, Mario Lopez, etc etc  lol

6. What was your favorite movie?
I've never had ONE favorite movie lol  I don't know anyone that could narrow that down.  I really liked Save the Last Dance, She's All That, My Big Fat Greek Wedding, You've Got Mail....ugh...I can't remember what else was out there then.  But I watched a lot of movies...most of them were chick flicks of course :)

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Kiss It Goodbye Challenge: Week 2 check-in

Can't believe another week has already passed and now we are in week 2 of my Kiss It Goodbye Challenge!  Things have been pretty busy the past week since I last checked in.  We went camping & hiking this weekend (will post pictures another time).  Other than the 3 or 4 hour hike (ouchy!), I only exercised once and that was yesterday.  Taking a whole week away from c25k hurt when I tried to get back in it.  But I did week 2 day 1 and pretty much made it through the whole thing.  I'll probably re-do day 1 again since I didn't quite make it through the 90 second segments (made it between 75-80 seconds each time) :)  But when I added it up...that's 9 minutes of jogging! That's awesome to me.  I can't wait until I'm actually jogging the whole thing.  That will be such a HUGE accomplishment.  If I can just get my lungs to keep up, I think I'd be doing ok.  I had to make myself do it yesterday because my calves still hurt really bad from the hiking. 

I did lose a pound this week!  Those 2 lbs that had somehow bounced back onto my scale are gone so I can now continue my weight loss count finally.  I still have another 23.5 to go before my cruise though.  And realistically...if I don't hit that, that's's just a goal I'm setting for myself.  I would rather see myself really succeed in the c25k program than to obsess about weight at this point.  Now that that's in writing for all to see...I have to stick by that thought process lol  I've lost 77.8lbs as of this morning.  Ready to pick it back up and get it going. :)

In other news...I have some house information but I'm not willing to share quite yet.  But I will share that we are going to look at a house tomorrow and I have high hopes.  It's so adorable.  I'm just not sure if the timing and all will work out.  I'll update more on that at a later time (probably won't be until the end of the month).  Just continue to pray that things go smoothly and quickly and it all works out.  I know it will work out if it's supposed to and if it doesn't then something better for us will come along.  I completely trust that God knows what we need more than we do.

Will post more later :)  Ciao!