Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Stuck in a rut

I have been stuck in such a rut lately.  I don't know how to overcome it.  With all the stress from the renter situation and our financial situation added on top of wacked out hormones....I just can't seem to get a grip on myself.  I haven't been boxing or doing any exercise in 2 weeks.  That's way too long.  Tonight is kickboxing and I really don't enjoy the kickboxing like I do boxing so instead, I'm going to walk my butt down to the fitness center at my apartment and do the workout that my trainer friend gave me to do. 

I watched Extreme Weight Loss last night.  I've never really watched it before and it was interesting.  The girl was 314 pounds and her goal was 155.  She reached her goal by the end of the show of course so she was able to go have surgery to remove her skin on her stomach.  She really got into running and crossfit.  It kind of made me want to think about training for a 5k again.  When I say again....I mean thinking about it again lol  I've never actually done one.  I know that our missions pastor is going to put together a 5k for this October to raise money for an area in Uganda.  Maybe I can be ready to run it by then.  I think it's my lung capacity that keeps me from being able to run.  I can work through the pain in my legs or body but I can't seem to breathe properly enough to run for more than a minute.  I know I need to try C25K or whatever it's called.  I even downloaded the app hah.

Another thing I can do is swimming.  I have a pool just down the stairs from my apartment.  I've been out there twice now....but mainly just to lay out.  Although Saturday when we went out, we did play with a beach ball for a while and that took some effort  lol  But if I could take advantage of that resource for the summer and go out there even 2 or 3 evenings a week to swim for 30 minutes or so.  I know that's a great exercise.

I definitely need to start writing down my plans and my goals.  I haven't really set goals for myself mainly because I'm afraid of failing.  I need to get over that.  But I need my goals to be realistic and not necessarily based on numbers on the scale.  I've reached the goal that my PA set for me to reach by my next appointment already.  She wanted me to lose 22 pounds by the time I came back on June 24.  Well it's only June 5 and I've already passed that which really is awesome.

I'm going to camp with the high schoolers in a week and a half.  I will be playing lots of volleyball, swimming, and playing on the beach (Panama City Beach! woo!).  I know I will get a good amount of exercise that week and be plum exhausted by the time it's over.  Then as soon as we pull in the parking lot from there, I'll be headed down to a family reunion to see people I've never met before and to see people who definitely haven't seen me in months (since Christmas really).  So that should be interesting.  I'll also be playing in the pool quite a bit that weekend too :)  Then I'll go for my 3 month follow up on the way home from the beach.

Another thing to work water intake.  It has really sucked.  I don't know how people do it.  I'm good if I get 40 ounces a day and I know that hinders my weight loss and effects my body in a lot of ways.  I don't know how to drink more.  Especially since you're supposed to stop drinking 15 minutes before and 30 minutes after you eat.  I guess I need to set a time on my phone or something  lol

So I guess my goals are:
1) exercise at least 4 days a week (boxing, swimming, strength training, jogging).  I'm not hurting anyone else but myself if I don't do that!  That should be motivation enough....not to mention my bat wings lol
2) Increase my water intake....a lot!
3) Feel good about my success so far.  I mean....52lbs.  I've never lost 52lbs before.  And I'm at a weight that I really don't remember being in probably 8 or 9 years.  Surely I can be proud of that.
4) Be better about tracking my food in MFP.  Make better choices.  I'm still keeping my carbs down pretty well but I need to choose 2 oz of veggies over an Atkins bar or something.  Unfortunately I'm a sucker for convenience.

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