It's been about a week and a half since I last posted. I thought I'd be able to update while I was in Florida but there really was not enough time in the day. However, I did have a wonderful time. It was a lot of fun....plus you can't really beat camp on a beautiful Florida beach. There wasn't much time to relax but I did try to just chill some. I think I'm still trying to recoup actually. My friend that I sat next to on the way down and back up was sick so I'm pretty sure I caught whatever icky virus she had or maybe I just have a cold....idk. The camp theme this year was "GreaterLess". Figuring out the things that we put ahead of God and making them less in order to make Him Greater. It was really great (ok that was a little redundant). Some people put positive things above God. I put my stress above Him. He's so much Greater than any problem or stress that I can possibly face. So with that and with my counseling session....it became very clear to me to just give it all to Him. And although I don't know what will happen in the future...that's what I've chosen to do. Just trust in Him to take care of these things that I dwell on and spend so much of my thoughts and energy on.
I didn't quite hit my goal of 60lbs while I was gone but I'm pretty darn close. I'm at -58.8lbs :) I've had a lot of people tell me how great I look. I've really got to learn to take a compliment.....and with a smile on my face. I just feel like when I try to dress up or something that it looks like I'm trying too hard and therefore I end up looking worse. Ugh. Why do I do that to myself? It probably has a lot to do with the fact that I haven't worked out in a month! Shame on me! I'm trying not to beat myself up over it. As soon as I'm not having to blow or wipe my nose every 2 seconds, I'll be back in the boxing club.
I'm really excited. My photographer friends only do sessions a few times a year because they are so busy with their wedding clients. I told Darren the next time they do one of their "tour" dates (they schedule 2 days where they book up sessions for those days only) that I was jumping on it. Well. We are doing a session on July 14. That will be just under 4 months from my surgery. But that's also only 2.5 weeks away! So I've got to get my butt in gear. The location where they are going to do them is really cool and I've been wanting to go there for a while. After this session, the next session I do, I want it to be "urban" or downtown somewhere rather than out in nature lol I'm thinking that will be this fall some time. I have to figure out what I'm going to wear. That will be the hard part for me because I have that whole skewed view of myself and I don't want to end up regretting what I pick out. I may pick out a few outfits and put them on and take a picture and send it to Kristin (photographer) and get her to help me lol
Speaking of pictures. I'm late on my 3 month progress pictures. I'm having Darren take them tonight since I was out of town last week and over the weekend and I like to do them in the same exact spot with the same type of clothes (jeans and a black tank top/spaghetti strap). I did do my measurements on Monday though and I've lost another 4.5 inches for a total of 32.75 inches gone forever. 8 inches just in my waist...6.5 in my hips. So I'm definitely proud of myself for that.
I've just got to work on this whole working out thing. It's like I've lost my mental determination to get in there and work out. I need to find that again asap. My arms and stomach could really use some major toning and it isn't just going to happen on it's own. Obviously I know I won't be able to fix this by the time I have our photo shoot but I will set my goals for December when we go on our cruise. No bat wings for me and no donut around my belly button. I know that sounds really weird right? But if I wear a shirt that is a little too tight (in my opinion), then all I see is this donut looking thing on my stomach surrounding my belly button. So here's to crunches, twists, planks, etc. Blah.
Just a quick update on the house thing. They've received notice to go ahead and move out. They have until the end of July. They didn't put up a fight because they kind of knew something was up when we wanted to do the inspection. My property manager basically reminded them that we are having to do this because of the financial burden they have caused us. Darren and I walked around Lowe's a bit on Sunday to try and figure out how much we would need to spend to spruce things up a bit. The carpet has been bad since we bought it so we will go ahead and replace that in the bedrooms (we put laminate down in the whole living area a couple years ago so thankfully we don't need to replace that), paint the entire living area (living room, foyer, dining room, kitchen, breakfast area....it's all open to each other), replace master bedroom door and frame and replace the frame on the back door, and pressure wash the outside. We're looking at about $1500. But we are trying to look at things as a perspective buyer would. If we were looking at houses, carpet that would have to be replaced right away would be an issue for us because we wouldn't have the extra money to do it so we thought that may help. Painting is another thing. Everything looks better (and smells better) with a fresh coat of paint. Unfortunately $1500 is a lot of money and that will take quite a bit of our savings that we will be using as a cushion while the house is on the market with no one paying anything. But I'm not going to worry about it. I'll think of everything a month at a time and not too far in the future.
Ok....well how was that for a bunch of random stuff. :)