I have got to learn not to step on the scale every morning. I know just as well as anyone else that weight fluctuates and it's not always going to move down....so why do I torture myself?? I had gotten down to 49lbs lost and then stepped on the scale the next day and the next and the next and it was up and down a pound. Seriously! Torture. Now granted, I did get really sunburnt (oops!) on Monday hanging by the pool for several hours and the thought of wearing a bra and moving so much at boxing made me want to puke. So I haven't been all week (oh the horror!). Yeh. I'm just gonna have to chalk this week up to being crap. Whatever. Life goes on. On a happy note, in order to combat the whole scale issue, I decided yesterday and today to dress nicer and not wear those horrible baggy pants that I have in my closet. Instead, yesterday, I wore a dress and today, I'm wearing a skirt. Granted, my legs are super white but who cares....they are comfy and don't look like a whole family could move into the butt of them like my pants do lol I think I will continue this trend for sure.
On a not so happy note...my renters. Ugh. I regret making the decision to rent our house out. We acted a little quickly instead of really investing a lot of time in prayer and waiting on God. I think because of that, we are definitely learning a lesson. And so be it. We needed to learn a lesson. It's hard. Finances already stress me out and we added to it on our own. Shame on us. But we can't move backward so we have to learn from our mistakes and move on. We are looking into what we need to do in order to evict. Somehow hopefully we can do it and still get all the money that they owe us. Then we are going to put the house on the market and just pray with everything we have that God provides us a miracle so we can get what we need out of it. I certainly don't doubt that He can make that happen if He sees fit. Between my property manager and ourselves....we put a lot of faith into our renters because he was in seminary to be a minister. However, I know very well that ministers are human too and I get that. He brought a letter to my property manager addressed to us the other day. I gave her permission to open it and scan it to me because I knew I wouldn't be able to wait long enough to go get it. He basically told us everything that we already knew through the property manager but he included a couple of things in there that bothered both of us (myself and property manager). It was almost insulting. Like because I'm a Christian, that I should have it in my heart to just go along with what he says and not evict them. Well, as of tomorrow they will owe $4800. I've had it in my heart for the past several months to allow them to stay causing my own family even harder financial struggles. I'm so thankful that God's mercy does not end like mine does. But I'm hurting and stressed because we've allowed these people to take advantage of us. And shame on them. I understand that everyone faces trials. But I've reached the end of my rope. They even tried to blame a couple things on my property manager which I know are not true because she's been very honest with me the entire time. Our house is the only issue she's ever had. Which is another indication that maybe God is using this as a lesson to us and maybe to her as well. She feels like she's been stabbed in the back by these people and I can't help but to agree with her. So we don't know how but we are going to try to get them to move out. Although, in the letter was a big plea of how their little girls love the house and love their school and don't want to move. Ugh. Yes this pulls at my heart strings but how am I supposed to continue?? I would rather the house sit empty while people are viewing it to buy it than for someone to live in it for free. I pay my bills on time. I understand how difficult it is to catch up when you have gotten behind but they haven't even tried to catch up. When you get paid, you should automatically pay your tithe and then pay for the roof over your head. Seriously. I've prayed and prayed about this. It's such a hard thing really. On one hand, I feel like a bad person. But on the other hand, I feel like I have got to put a stop to this. And really....I kind of want to write my own letter back to him about how someone in the ministry is held at a higher standard sometimes and that we trusted them and that they should not make me feel like I'm any less of a Christian because I feel the need to evict them because of the financial stress they are putting on us. Never again will I be a landlord. NEVER AGAIN! Please pray that we can get this situation taken care of and we can sell our house for what we need it to sell for and quickly. Your prayers are greatly appreciated.