Monday, May 27, 2013

Just another post

I have really got to come up with some better titles! lol

I didn't get a chance to take my 2 month progress pictures last weekend when it was my actual 2 month "sleevaversary" so I took them today along with my measurements.  I won't be posting my progress pictures for a few more months but the picture I have as my profile picture is a newer picture of me.  I am going to try to start a page link with progress pictures along the way though.  I think those are cool to see and helpful for others.  I've lost 49 pounds and a total of 24 inches since March 5 (start of pre-op diet).  I wore a dress and heels to church yesterday for the first time in years.  I think Darren told me about 5 times how pretty I looked.  Obviously I need to start dressing up a lil' more lol.

My therapist gave me "homework".  I'm supposed to think of any memory I can possibly bring up that has perhaps affected many aspects of my life.  At first, I couldn't think of any and I told my therapist "I don't think I really have any" but then as I was driving home, lots of memories starting popping up in my head.  Obviously I will not be posting them on the internet because I'd rather not be THAT personal for all to see.  It doesn't all have to be weight related because there are other areas of my life that I'm working through.  So I'm supposed to write everything down and pray about each one of them and also bring them back to my next session.  I'm also supposed to think about what I want to get out of therapy.  That one will be difficult as well I think because I'm not really sure.  Maybe I just want an unbiased person to talk to that can give me some advice.  But I also want to deal with the negative self-image and the self-doubt. 

I spent about 3.5 hours by the pool today.  It was quite lovely.  I got a lil' toasty but I'm trying to slowly get some color before I go Panama City Beach with our High School students for camp.  If not, I'll come back a lobster.  I'll be going there in about 2 weeks :) then as soon as I get back, I'm going down to the beach for a family reunion.  Not too thrilled about the family reunion but I'm excited to spend some time hanging with my immediate family...especially my nephew.  Darren won't be able to go with me so that's kind of a bummer but it'll alright.  I'm hoping to lose another 6-10 pounds before I go though.  I went to camp two years ago and I was probably about my highest weight.  It was difficult to keep up really and it doesn't help being around a bunch of teeny high school kids.  So I'm hoping this year that I can go with more confidence.  I won't have a group of girls to lead this year.  My primary role there is to take pictures.  No problems there :)

So anyway.  That was a bunch of randomness but that's all I've got.  Hopefully I can write more this week about something helpful.


  1. Love the new profile picture, blue is a GREAT color on you. Good idea on starting a base tan, I'm sure this year being 50+lbs (probably more by then!) down will really help you feel more active! Congrats on your loss and wow!

  2. I agree with Sheila, blue is a beautiful color on you! Congratulations on your progress so far, you are doing awesome!