Sunday, March 17, 2013

Fear

I read a blog the other day of someone who had the sleeve surgery and lost quite a bit of weight.  She expressed in her blog about some different emotional and mental battles that went along with the weightloss.  As I get closer to my own surgery, I realize that these same things are fears of my own.  She mentioned that people expect that when a large person loses weight that they are stronger.  This can sometimes be far from the truth because as the weight comes off, there are psychological issues that have been hidden for so long and are beginning to surface. I have never considered myself to have a "relationship" with food but as I begin to come to grips with the fact that I won't be eating anything I'm used to, I find that I may have used it as a crutch.  I know I have a lot of "issues". I'm pretty good at hiding them. But I'm afraid of the changes to come. I know I'm doing the right thing. I just pray that God will help me through any tough times.  Once I'm cleared for strength training, I want to join a nearby boxing club in hopes of dealing with any emotional issues that way. Nothing better than punching away the stresses of life :).

So anyway...other than the normal fears that come along with having surgery...this is what I'm thinking about.

By the way. I'm only 2 days away. Nervous but ready. I've been waiting for 8 months now.

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